Old meee

I cant believe that I am going back Brunei this weekend. YAY !! Well its not a holiday because Rabbit has some issue needa sort out. Not really like sorting out but have to face it. Same thing been delaying for almost two years. At first I was kinda fed up but why not take things easy and take it as a short trip away from a hectic city ( but still upset with the air ticket fare I spent :p ) . Sorry to friends that I didnt inform about my "back" because "so short trip" :p And sorry to my colleagues whose gona be so busy in Sembcorp and I not gona help :( Ill make it up tomorrow and make sure I do MORE !!!

All my weekends in June has been occupied and this is a good news :D However recently me enjoy my time at home because spending time w myself is so important as I could have more awareness and of course I can write more :D 

Now I am at Kranji NeWater plant smelling "shit" because theres desludging. I already smell like shit and plus the real shit smell so this time I really jiasai T_T 

Next week I am going to USS yuhuuu Actually I wana to go w my love one but pris bd so i hv to go :p she will kill me if she sees this :p 

Then next next week lulu is coming again yuhuuu I can " ma pou" with her again!!! Ill see you soon lulu ~~~

Note: NOw I am back to office yuhuuu

Just browsed through my old pictures with Pris and I look terrible, horrible and vegetable...

 Please do not judge me :p And Enjoy reading :p

Clarity....

Everyday is a "struggling" but this is a sweet one because I get to go deeper into myself. The deeper I go, I have more awareness and I am able to catch myself faster and I have more clarity about MYSELF. 

I thought I had successfully realize my illusions during my CV3 but till yesterday I found out that the deeper I go  the more illusions I discover. All these while I set my own criteria for my partner. He has to treat me like a real princess, I must be the first priority , I have to be notified for all his small and huge issues and I must be the only one. In fact a real connection doesn't need to be clingy and tell even how much "shit" you have pooped :p A real connection is to hv full trust and share without worry your partner will judge you. I always worry by sharing too much I will be judged (even I share alot compare to others :p ) Trust is another big issue that I hope I could "real" learn about it. I know only by trusting myself fully then I can trust my friends and my partner. I feel insecure because I dun trust myself . Why shouldnt I trust myself when I know how wonderful I am .

Before I go into my next relationship I better have more clarity of myself so that I will love myself more before I love my partner. Only by loving ourselves more, we will be able to have sustainable relationship with our partner. I am thankful that I am given the chance to have more clarity and really know about myself. So much to learn and I am ready for it .....

Last , Today I feel fantastic  and definitely AWESOMEE and THE BEST !!!! 

Think Simple

Most of us depend on our partner to make us happy, special and complete. How much we worth depends on how much our partner give. This type of happiness is definitely not sustainable. The truth is nobody can give us the happiness we can give to ourselves. Love yourself first before you choose to love other. 

It doesnt matter if the day is stressful, busy or out of expectation, you have the choice to be real happy.

No matter your up or down, bear bear always can make the toughest person in the world smile and say " YOU ARE SO CUTEEE"

Rabbit in her new corset :D

I wana be your sweetest drug :D

Last day Chivvy and I had pre birthday dinner with Priscilla whose having great time in Bintan . Hope you have the sweetest time ever. 

As per requested, we were "forced" to kiss the "soon birthday" girl :p Btw I was very willingly :p

Girls' out night (wout guys for sure :p )


Ok! Its time for rabbit to sleep soon . Good night everyone. Hope you all have a peaceful sleep. Tomorrow will be brand new day because its Monday :D

Whats your hope

Hope is a catalyst. It can even move obstacles that seem immovable. When you keep pushing, refusing to give up, you create momentum. Hope created opportunities you never would have anticipated. Helpful people are drawn to you. Doors open. Paths are cleared ~ Nick Vujicic

Just recently I failed in "Sunsilk Academy Fantasia Audition" and at that moment I felt so hopeless and I questIioned the reason I sang all these years. I asked myself why I still wana sing even I know I never get champion nor a really good singer. However later on when Cresta showed me the news of another singing audition, I joined immediately. I am thinking.. what make me take the courage to join singing contest again and again . Now I can tell you.. its the hope. I have hope and I believe in my hope. I may not be the most powerful singer and I may not be the best but I have hope that I will be better and better as long as I never give up. Why would I give up on my passion! Everyone's voice is special and I should be proud of my gift. Believe in my hope and live for it. 

At the same time I have doubt in relationship. I started to doubt if I still able to be a good partner or I could stay violet in my next relationship. My monkey mind started to tell me " No you cannot do it! See what happened to all your past? You have failed. Its impossible to get someone that really love and willing to grow with you no matter what had happened !!! However I still believe that I am still able to work hard with my next partner . This is because of hope. I have the hope that this is not the "impossible" to search for the true love and my soul mate. Trust my feeling and it wont be wrong even though there might be lots of obstacles and need lots of my compassion. Of course there is no need to rush because true love can wait and it takes time to nourish.Relationship is like a baby. First you have to find the right partner that willing to take care of this relationship with you. 

Remember - action brings reaction. When you are tempted to abandon your dreams, push yourself to continue one more day, one more week, one more month, and one more year. You will be amazed at what happens when you refuse to quite ~ Nick Vujicic 

Whens the last time I see you in person...

Last nite as usual I had a deep talk with one of my best friend in Sg ( guess its so obvious who I mention :p ) and I know that this beautiful angel has higher awareness since the first day I knew her. Shes sensitive, shes caring and definitely she is growing. This is the friendship that I am looking for. Not just chill out , dine together but share our awareness and lessons that we learn everyday. From her I learned about authentic. To me she never hide. She will tell me her deepest feeling and of course she always be frank about my weakness and my strength. Again I have to say, my life is so beautiful and my eyes see beautiful people only and if i see you, it means you are the beautiful one. 

Today is my second day in plant and surprisingly I am super busy but due to cant talk to people so I decide to blog to express my feelings hahaha. This morning, Oh ya, I woke up with a sweet call which made my day and thank you :) 

Note : I wrote the above two paragraphs in the morning but due to technical problem I had to  repeat my experiment then stopped half way coz been busy filling up my container. 

I thought I could end my experiment soon but till now Im still waiting. Compare to staying in office , I have to pay so much attention here and I get extra exhausted. I start to love this place. Awesome man!!!! HOwever so geram that i even broke the small box's key. abuuuu how can i !!!!! 

Note: I wrote the above paragraph in the late afternoon but unfortunately couldnt manage to finish the post :(

And now Im home blogging again. What a lovely life I have. I gona rest early so that I can survive in plant tomorrow. Cant believe its Friday soon. Thinking if Ill see you this week... *praypray* 

How nice if I could go for a date now *hehe* miss that feeling but not bad tho spending time with myself in my tiny little room. I realise the more time you have for yourself, the more clarity you have. 

So hows day everyone? Hope today is another sweet day for u. Happy Evening and Rest early tonite :)

Time to think...

Ever since I work in SG, its hardly to see me blog at this hour because always busy. Today I have bit more time to blog because most of the time I am waiting for result and this place is windy but still hot to me. I started to feel dizzy not sure if im sleepy or just too dry. However this is definitely a great experience and glad to tell you all that I gona spend my next two weeks here. Yuhuuuuu 

Yay My lucky CuteRabbit's necklace. I think rabbit is the cutest animal in the world hehe

Ooops I suppose to collect this for LHH but till now I havent go to McD because I hardly eat McD. 

I went to Dama to collect items for Adrian then realised wah they provided food for customers. So geng oh!!!

Recently CR & Eahui is so into FT. I even celebrated her birthday through FT when Dickson surprised her with a birthday cake. Isnt Iphone 4 fantastic!!! 

We even FT before she headed to HSBC marathon.

I gona join Ultimate Star Search on 17th June but this time I gona enjoy myself and no pressure.

Ever since my stitch has a new gf, hes happier than before and they plan to travel overseas. Yuhuuu

"Xin La Mian" Everyone's favourite. Corliss said must take this pic then blog about it :p 

This morning I changed the MRT line at jurongEast then it ws so crowded. When i was out from the mrt , passengers tried to squeeze into the MRT then the girl behind me shouted to everyone to back off!!! Such a Red morning for them!!

My only food in plant (Dabao at Kranji MRT Station) which cost only $2.60. Guess what!! Theres no food in the plant. Well good time to lose weigh AGAIN!!!

I should bring socks tomorrow because my feet is freaking itchy hiding inside this small space. I am crying now T-T

I think I have been trying to avoid a certain topic recently because I think I am not really ready for it. Guess its a bad idea to escape so I guess I need time to really think and cool down. Maybe I lost confident due to what had happened and I doubt alot. Btw life is beautiful and I have to learn to appreciate and live my life to the fullest. Enjoy your day everyone and dun forget to smile to at least 5 person.

Office Jokes

Today is the first day rabbit spends her time with MH at a plant. Well basically we have to run experiment to collect some data for our client. While waiting for the result I think of the jokes that happen in my office. Then here you are.

(1) I never success in dating FW out because he always gives me various of excuses. This is how the conversation sound like :

CR : Remarkable David ~~~ Do you wana go out with me tonite ? 

FW: NO!!! I dun accept last minute reservation!! Please Queue Up!!

Then sadly he walked away without giving me a second look ......

(2) Adrian praises me alot. This is one the compliments that I love most. 

CR: Adrian... I gona join singing audition soon . 

AY: Carol, I know you can sing but ONLY TO YOURSELF !! 

Then sadly he walked away without giving me a second look....

(3) MH cannot accept the real me . 

MH: Rabbit, I think you are weird from head to toe!!

CR: T.T  your so mean...

MH: Rabbit, I think you are weird from head to top!!

Then sadly he walked away without giving me a second look...

(4) Timothy wont even give me a chance to invite him to sit beside me. 

On a bus...

CR: *patting the seat* Timmmm here....

Timo: Walked away immediately and sit far from me. 

Then sadly I turned my head to the window and stared at the sky

(5) Ys always perves at my undies. Whenever I wear a little more revealing, she will definitely realize and tell me whats the color of undies I wear of the day. I guess shes just being too observant. 

(6) MH ever asked Pris this question

MH : Pris Where do you know this Rabbit? YOur friend kah ? siao siao one...

PS: Errrr I also duno this rabbit...

Then sadly I walked away without giving both of them a second look....

Sound like sad things to me & jokes to my colleagues :p Recently KC joked alot but unfortunately I cant remember most of them. Next time I should record all these jokes and share through my blog :p 

Happy Morning Avionee!!!!!

Eyes of Compassion

Everyday is a special day to rabbit because it only happens once in a lifetime. Why do we have to live in miserable? Why do we have to  live in sadness? Thats why I ask myself everyday "Rabbit Rabbit, So today whats your choice ? " And my answer is always " Happy and contented". Sometimes of course you will encounter problems like you could not accept others' point of view about urself but remember always trust yourself and we couldn't control how others think of us. Be compassion with your partner, colleagues, friends and family. Whenever you hear something that you cant accept or bad from them, try to think of this way. This person is someone who love me alot and this person care me so much and what I can do now is to appreciate him/her to be w me right now and I love him/her as the way he/she is. Trust me !! This is a really powerful thoughts. Well you might say Im too naive or innocent but hardly theres ppl that will harm you purposely unless you mix with the wrong group. In our daily lives, people surround us especially our family members wan the best for us. 

I see things more clearly since the past few months. Reason is I am not into any relationship (kinda :p ) and I have been learning to really grow up and of course im still in the progress. During these few months, I learn to appreciate people even more. Its easy to say "Thank You" but its always hard for us to really appreciate someone from the bottom of our heart. This year I am 28 and my parents never leave me all this while and my well being is always their priority. I know that some of the decisions I made disappointed them alot and will disappoint them in future (maybe) but I will learn to deal with it compassionately. 

Of course I face problems sometimes but whenever I think of how beautiful this world is and how amazing my environment is , I feel so blessed and what else i can ask for more. If I myself not satisfied with what been given by God to me then I am not deserve anything better. 

Tomorrow Ill be at plant whole day for the very first time and wish me Good Luck!! Ill share with you all my experience in plant mostly through twitter. Follow me CuteRabbit84 because I tweet more than I fb :p Nowadays Im busy with thing at nite thats why hardly blog :p Hope you all dun mind heheheh 

Ok!!  Good nite my dear friends . Rabbit gona roll to her bed in a while with her smelly blanket. Sleep soon and sweet dreams. Hugssss

Rabbit at Sunsilk Academic Fantasia

Rabbit found out about Sunsilk Academic Fantasia Audition from Superadrianne Instagram and my eyes turned super huge immediately. I always very into singing contest because this is my number one passion. I am not really good in it but I enjoy singing so much. Immediately I took a bus went to office just to online to check for the registration method around 5pm last Saturday. Before that I was taking my sweet nap because I had a really tiring morning. Later on i started to practise the song that I gona performed. Sunday Morning was the audition and I even took a cab to Novena MRT station because I thought I was late :p Semangat betul me . I arrived around 9 plus then only I knew walk in audition started at 11am and the audition started at 1pm. I spent  my morning time worrying, nervous-ing and filling up form :p 

I always get extra nervous when come to singing. Then of course I didnt get into the competition and that moment I felt so miserable. I felt so weak that I wanted to cry. Reason is I guess I wanted to have the "recognition" & of course I know I did not perform really well . However even though I didnt been chosen I earned in my friendship. SK & Grace were there supporting me to give me power so that I wont be nervous While Pris, Cresta, Lee Nuang, Yen Swan, Eahui, Rano & etc were there WA - ing with me to give me full support. After my audition, Grace belanja me a really nice lunch at chinatown then SK belanja me beer early in the evening at Brewerkz Clark Quay. How sweet they are. Then I had fantastic home cook dinner at Pris & Kern's place. Pris cooked rice, tofu, vege and chicken soup. She is definitely a good wife in future and I already know that Kern is a wonderful husband. I spent my evening with them then I totally forgot about my "failure". I spent alot of free time with these two couples because I feel something really special in them ~~~ Love... The most powerful word  in the world. They might be not realising it but because of them I feel so warm and so loved. They do not have to love me extra but I already feel so loved when Im around them because they love their own partner so much. 

Today I learned not to see the black dots but think out of the box. I am not a failure because I know I wont give up on what I love and what I believe in. Life is always good and I have faith in myself. 

Rabbit AT Avalon with DJ John White

Last Saturday Rabbit finally visited Avalon which is in the crystal Pavilion that located at Marina Bay Sands Singapore. When I just reached the place, I can totally leave the world behind because the design of this building is definitely creative, sexy, colorful and amazing. Of course I had sexy ladies' companion and you will see their faces in my following pictures. I had a great time in Avalon because DJ John White was in the house. Yuhuuu. If you like white guys then this is a good place for your to meet your prince charming. Too bad Im not there to get a guy home so it doesnt matter to me :p FYI, if you hold a Amex or OCBC Titanium  credit card , you could enter Avalon for free with 2 more friends. Isnt it awesome!!! Maybe Rabbit will see you there some days :D

Marina Bay Sands is really a great place for couples. While I was walking along the place, I was wondering how nice I could walk with the one I like then enjoy the evening and the scene together. We dont have to talk much but just enjoy each other's companion. Sweet :))

Note: Sorry to my dear readers, my hp can only take "this " quality of pictures :p Therefore the pictures are quite blur and dark :p Happy Evening !!